What is the purpose of continuing on? This thought kept going through my mind as I sat alone at the quiet corner of the library during that tumultuous period when my heart waged an all-out war against my mind.
Emotions fluctuate. The mind sought to control the flow of feelings. It was an even match between them.
How did I manage to call a truce between my two raging personalities?
I reconciled them to the fact that I didn't join and did all these for my own sake. On a wimp, I posted a 'cry-out' on an online post. The answer came from none other than a sister in faith.
I asked what did I joined nursing for?
She told me that it is to serve God and His people.
How true.
How have I forgotten so much.
How selfish I had become.
It was all 'me me me' for the past few months.
Maybe it is time to change this tune to somebody else's tune.
My dear friends and classmates, if any of you are reading this, I ask for your forgiveness and understanding. I am only human, but that is not an excuse for my actions/behaviours/decisions.
I will do better and be better.
Our group survived as one through so many things. No other groups came even this close to what we had build up for ourselves. The camaraderie that we have will persevere and continue our legacy.
We have learnt how to work with each other and push on through difficulties.
Now we have to learn how to be better nurses.
