Although she taught us only for 1 class in fundamentals, what she inspired us in that class will be an indelible mark on our time as students and eventually nurses. We were finishing up on the lessons for that day and she was going around asking at random what we aspired to be. She looked in my direction and asked. "Young man, what do you want to be in the future in this profession?" I wanted to say that I am determined to be a doctor in the future but being afraid that others may laugh at me for having such 'high' hopes and when since I am already in training to be a nurse. I know the path to be a doctor from a nurse is uncommon but I really do love medicine and the fact that I felt I will be a better doctor if I am a nurse before. As a professional who takes care of people's health needs, I want to be able to see them as people that need to be treated holistically and not just a bunch of diagnosis and lab results.
So back to that moment on that day, I answered the 'normal' answer and that is to be an APN. I was not answering from my heart. It was not the truthful answer that I should have given. She said to me, "Good, good! That is a very good goal to aspire to!" It was then she went on to the next student, Sweetie, who like me, wanted very much to be a doctor someday too. Some may call it youthful brash-fullness but she gave her most truthful answer and got what she and I needed to hear.
After the laughter died down, Ms Gwee (who didn't laughed at her) said to all present that she knew of nurses who eventually became doctors. And they are truly better doctors as they understand at the core of all those diseases and treatments that there is a human needing care. She told us that it is better to chase after what we want and never give up on our dreams. It is something worth aspiring to be.
The memory of what she said to us on that day came back in a flood of memories as I stood there behind the glass watching at the crematorium. I prayed for the Lord to take good care of her soul in Heaven and said a silent goodbye to her. As the surrounding emotions ran high, I could not help but felt tears welling up in my eyes too. In life, we will meet people who guide and inspire us to be different from what we are. For the most of us aspiring nurses and 2 aspiring doctors to be, she gave the hopes and inspirations to carry on with our dreams. Goodbye and thank you, Ms Gwee and may God bless your soul...
For now and the future, whenever people will ask me what do I want be in the future after becoming a nurse, I will just say that I am going to be a doctor. Let them laugh and jeer at me, it does not bothers me because I knew someone who believed in my dreams and what I can achieve.
I really cheer for you stanley. I hope all your wishes come true. You know Ms Gwee taught me at school of nursing. When I first saw her at Parkway, I was surprised that she can recognise me. I felt very sad upon hearing her death. She was very strict at that time but still she was concerned for all the students.I really miss her.
ReplyDeleteIt requires great courage to face the world when they are laughing. Keep the aspiration going. I heard of 2 students who got into Duke - though that path may not be what u desire as Duke-NUS is training research doctors.
ReplyDeleteEven if that does not happen, an APN is a possibility though one that u may have to explore with other institution in time to come. I know of some APN and so if u r serious I can arrange for them to meet u when the time is ripe.
Indeed, both Sweetie and yourself share great attitudes in life and like what u said good nurses will make better doctors than those without nurse training.
Ms Gwee will be pleased to know that she has impressed on so many souls though she only spend some time with Parkway.