What is the purpose of continuing on? This thought kept going through my mind as I sat alone at the quiet corner of the library during that tumultuous period when my heart waged an all-out war against my mind.
Emotions fluctuate. The mind sought to control the flow of feelings. It was an even match between them.
How did I manage to call a truce between my two raging personalities?
I reconciled them to the fact that I didn't join and did all these for my own sake. On a wimp, I posted a 'cry-out' on an online post. The answer came from none other than a sister in faith.
I asked what did I joined nursing for?
She told me that it is to serve God and His people.
How true.
How have I forgotten so much.
How selfish I had become.
It was all 'me me me' for the past few months.
Maybe it is time to change this tune to somebody else's tune.
My dear friends and classmates, if any of you are reading this, I ask for your forgiveness and understanding. I am only human, but that is not an excuse for my actions/behaviours/decisions.
I will do better and be better.
Our group survived as one through so many things. No other groups came even this close to what we had build up for ourselves. The camaraderie that we have will persevere and continue our legacy.
We have learnt how to work with each other and push on through difficulties.
Now we have to learn how to be better nurses.
Happy to read this,Stanley. Finally, I know whats wrong with you? Not concentrating in the class and quiet always.
ReplyDeleteNursing is not the cup of tea for everyone. It is also not a job as simple as other people views.The "touch" to be given to the elderly and critically ill patients is not easy.For my point of view,is good that the person know their own direction earlier rather than know it after he has completed the whole course; after they have spent all their time and money.Who knows they able do better in other course. We should not hold the struggling students to continue whatever they do not like because of our own emotion.
However,I hope that by now you should know how to haddle this situation and handle it well in future as you might face wellknown patients pass away in the hospital. Remember people who left us not because of our false or they hate us but is because they found their comfort zone in the different direction.
Take care and cheer.
Regard,
Emma
Dear Ms Emma,
ReplyDeleteThank you for your contribution to the blog!
I will remember your advice. Thank you for your words of encouragement. We do miss you here at school, but we are hoping that you doing well in your new environment. Do drop by often to update us about it! We will love to hear from you.
Take care and God bless you,
Stanley.